saging lang ang may puso!

natapos na din ang araw na pinakaabangan ng marami sa atin. sa paghupa ng "putukan", hindi naman lahat ng tao ay naging masaya sa nagdaang araw. kaya nga ang post kong ito ay alay para sa lahat ng kagaya ko na hindi nananabik sa pagdating ng araw ng mga puso.

simple lang, wala naman sigurong kelangang ipagdiwang (at hindi ko din alam kung papaano gagawin) kung kayo ay malayo din sa mga mahal mo sa buhay. kahit gaano kahaba o kalagkit ang mensaheng ipinadala nyo sa isa’t isa through txt, tawag, or chat, di pa rin nun mapupunan yung kahungkagan ng mga puso nyo na umaasa na sana kahit sandali lang ay magkasama kayo sa ganitong mga espesyal na pagkakataon.

hindi ko makita ang sense ng pagbabatian ng dalawang indibidwal ng “maligayang" araw ng mga puso kung sa totoo naman ay hindi naman talaga kayo masaya dahil magkalayo kayo at wala kayong magawa kundi tanggapin ang realidad na ito. para sa mga hungkag at mabigat ang pakiramdam at pilit na nililibang ang sarili sa ibang bagay sa mga ganitong okasyon, nakikiisa ako sa inyo.

para sa mga kagaya mo na nagmamahal at patuloy na umaasa sa mga taong muka namang walang pakiramdam at walang konsiderasyon sa nararamdaman mo (wag ka nang lumingon lingon pa dyan, ikaw ito! damay ka na rin sa post na to! hahaha!). naturingan pa naman na bf mo pero walang kaeffort effort na batiin ka man lang sa araw ng mga magsing-irog. sabi mo nga, “nakalimutan?? isang malaking kalokohan!!” ipakilala mo nga sa akin yan at nang mapilipit ko ang leeg para sa yo! isa lang ang sagot dyan, kung hindi ka na masaya e di iwanan mo na.. puro sama lang naman ng loob ang ibinibigay sayo e.. di na yan magbabago!

para sa mga singol pa rin hanggang ngayon…

-hindi na kasalanan ng mundo kung bakit wala kang kasama sa mga pagkakataong kagaya neto, masyado ka kasing mapili, masyado kang pihikan, masyado ka kung makapanlait, e hindi ka naman talaga kagandahan! hehehe! o, sino ngayon ang mukang kawawa? e di ba ikaw din?

-ang laging katwiran mo kasi e ang pag-ibig kusang dumadating.. baka naman nalagpasan ka na ng pagkakataon o kaya naman ay sa malayo ka pa nakatingin e yun pala andyan lang sa tabi tabi yung para sayo di mo lang napapansin..

-wag mong masyadong pangarapin ang isang tao. tama na siguro ang paghihintay mo, baka kasi yung hinihintay mo e may iba palang hinihintay. ano nga ba talaga ang hinhintay mo? ang mauntog sya at mapalingon sayo? aw c’mon!

-kung papatay patay ka, nasasayo naman talaga yan e.. minsan kelangan mong gumawa ng sariling hakbang, lunukin ang pride at kapalan ang muka para magkatotoo ang mga gusto mo sa buhay.. tama na ang pacute at kakahintay ng tamang pagkakataon, dumiskarte ka na ng swabe bago ka pa maubusan ng oras o maunahan ng iba..

-para sa mga talaga namang nagmamaganda pero walang gustong sumubok, “pasensya na lang kung talagang nakaka-intimidate ang mga kagaya nyo kaya hanggang ngayon ay solo pa rin kayo. ganun talaga! kasalanan nyo yan, masyado kasi kayong magaganda!” para sa mga nag-abang ngunit walang dumating.. umasa ng todo ngunit hindi naman inaya, nag-effort ng todo-todo pero di man lang nakaiskor… better luck next time!

tapos na nga ang araw ng mga puso. ngayon naman ang araw ng mga pusong sugatan. isang araw lang ang valentine’s day, lumilipas din kagaya ng nagdaang mga ordinaryong araw sa buhay mo.. wag kang malungkot -- nakakabaog!

don’t dwell on the past, cheer up and move on!

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the one that got away

in your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. there's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with... and the one that got away.

who is the one that got away? i guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong.

there was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, i suppose.

i believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. i can actually agree that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. it has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

how often have you gone through it without even realizing it? when you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. small problems become big; in consequentials become deal breakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. it's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

then one day you're ready. you really are. and when this happens, you'll be ready to settle down with someone. he or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. it'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. and it'll make sense, it really will.

so that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. and mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. hopefully you're still single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn't matter. all you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about. you'll think about them because you'll wonder, "what if they were today?" you'll wonder, "what if we were together now, with me as i am and not as i was?" that's what the one that got away is. the biggest "what if?" you'll have in your life.

if you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. but hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. it's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.

maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. in which case it's the same thing. you just have to accept and know that you're memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing.

but if neither of that is the case, then it's different. what do you do if it's not yet too late? simple... find him, find her. because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one?

ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. you'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away."

you might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference. if the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, i'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "hey you, you're the one that almost got away."

tyope ako (part 2)

bakit ba kasi kayo nagreact talaga sa last post kong tiyope ako??!

bakit ayaw nyong maniwala? lalo ka na, ikaw din at isa ka pa… oo! kayo!

natatawa kayo sa akin… sa pinagsusulat ko… at ikaw… humirit ka pa na sa susunod e yung totoo ang i-blog ko… aba e kasalanan ko ba naman na tyope ako?? at wala ba akong karapatan?? teka nga… bakit nyo ba ko pinakikialaman?? blog ko to ahh??! mga buseett!! lolz

o sige, hayaan nyong magpakaemote ako at patutunayan ko sa inyo..

hindi ako guwapo at hindi rin magaling mambola. Its either nabulag ka lang o sinuwerte lang siguro ako sa iyo.. oo, sa yo.

at hindi naman laging pasko, syempre nabokya na rin ako… at hindi lang isang beses… di ko na sasabihin sayo kung ilan kasi baka di ka na naman maniwala at pagtawanan mo na naman ako.

pero ang pinaka da best na pagkakabasted sa akin e sa loob ng pampasaherong jeep! sukat ba naman na sabihan ako na wag daw akong makulit dahil hindi nya ako gusto??!! wahahaha!! nasopla ako dun ahh??!! pakiramdam ko gusto kong matunaw sa kahihiyan at sumigaw ng paraaaa!! ewan ko ba dun, dumidiskarte pa lang ako, di pa man nagtatapat, basted na agad??!! gusto ko sanang soplahin ng… “bakit? nililigawan ba kita??” wahahaha!!

di daw ako gusto?? kaya pala ako ang lagi nyang tinatawagan noon pag may special occasions at may mga lakad sya.. tapos nung one time na nakainom sya e dun lumabas din lahat ng totoo.. may pag-iyak pa?! at muntik na pagsasamantala sa mura kong katawan! wahahaha!!! meganonnn?? lol pero xempre nabalewala lang yung gabing yun.. nadiskubre ko pangit pala pag masyadong pakipot, nakakaturn off!

eto pa… gaya ng iba, may all-time crush ako… isa sa grupo.. alam naman ng buong grupo yun. at hanggang ngayon applicable pa rin ang linyang tyope ako. alam ko, ramdam nya lahat ng mga pa-special treatment ko sa kanya, at syempre halata ng lahat. Pero kahit extra sweet xa sa akin (na halos magkapalit na ang mukha namin that night – take note, di pa kami nakakainom nung time na yun) nung huling b-day nya na may dala akong b-day cake, wala pa ring nangyaring pinakaaabangan (ng mga manyak) ng grupo dahil nga kasi tyope ako. parang di ko magawang isugal ang friendship namin at mabahiran ng kamunduhan ang magandang pagtingin ko sa kanya. oo, sa tagal ng panahon hanggang ngayon di ko pa rin naamin sa kanya. At hanggang ngayon di pa rin nawawala, super extra special pa rin sya at hindi napalitan ninuman. andun pa rin ang kabog at tiklop tuhod effects pag magkasama kami. nahuhumaling pa rin ako sa kanya. lol

o ano? satisfied ka na na tyope talaga ako? ikaw? ikaw? ikaw? at ikaw din??!… kinakabahan na ba kayo? Na baka kwento nyo na ang kasunod mong mabasa?? wahahaha!!

next time, next time… lol